Why must 'Thread of Life'?

It feels different when you started or ended something, right?

Example, when you and your boy/girlfriend say love to each other for the first time were heard sweet isn't it?

But when you ended it and heard this word: love from your X, it feels disgust! Or may be for you who cried all day caused of the relationship ended, you'll think that God hates you and gives you sorrow and sorrow. (but its false, God loves everyone)

Thread: Its a changes of each part into the another part

So, the point is:

Something beautiful in the beginning

Can turn into opposite at another time

God's Blaming or Blame my God

Talked about destiny: 
-No one can say "God hate me! He gives no happiness to me"
From writer(OktariniWirjono):
-I love my life. Really I do love my life. I have my good family, nice friends, and my beloved Dimas Ontokesumo. But something that we love can makes us fall into them. Fall into too much happiness. Is that good? Is that good when you enjoy your glamorous without other?
Why do you blame your God?
-I hate when my heart rebelled and prefer to blame our God. Sometimes feels "I cant feel freedom! I wanna do my own rule, not his!" Freedom is heard good, but when you wanna free from your God, you idiot!
-After enjoyin my life, usually i did a penance ritual. Pray..Pray..Begging to God. This is me. I did anything with my style. I do love my boyfriend, and I'll show it with my way. For other people it makes me look as a bitch. But not for me. This is my way to loving Dimas Ontokesumo. Its suck right? That rules makes me cant expression my love!
How can God blame you?
-When we still alive. God will not speak directly to you. He just reduce our enjoyment. God is everything. We couldn't be like him. When we mad, we couldn't restrain our emotion. But God? He's nice, we never heard his anger.
So? What's your result?
-"I don't blame anyone or my self. This is life. There is no scared life in this world. And I was the proof of that. God needs me, and I need him more than he needs me."
-"I'm proud to be a bad example and I'm proud to still realize it"

Just enjoy your life, everybody

You know, I hate their rules, God's rule

But I respect it

Life always flows then gone

I'll flow into them, then gone with them

If I refuse that rules, I'm going lose people that I love before they loss me

Tragedy: Lucy

Tragedy Lucy is (my) story about a girl who doesn't know about her parent's divorce. She lives with her stepmother and her father. She almost hate all of her life except her boyfriend and her friend(s). There I just told about her boyfriend. He was a faithful guy, Lucy was grateful to have him. He's Brian.

Brian promised to his girlfriend to help her to find the reason of Lucy's Parent's Divorce...

But he couldn't! In front of Lucy, with her own eyes, when she couldn't stand up from her wheelchair, her father KILLED Brian. If he does not ever want to see her daughter's happiness?

In Lucy's mind:

"Only him who ever kissed me..

Only him who ever touched me..

I thought it will cause an immortality in our love..

He's the one who showed me something that they called l-o-v-e..

Factually, we had fuck and i miss when he slept over me

It caused of our love. BRIAN&ME!

and only with him I hope to ever did it

I WILL KILL MY FATHER"

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What do you think about my story?

NB: I once wrote story about Lucy before, but already I deleted